Thursday, October 13, 2011

The month of October has been a month of reflection for me. Since the first day of October I have thought about how different my life is now then it was one year ago. One year ago I was MISERABLE. One year ago, I had not yet experienced the joy of watching Stedson & Treydon giggle at each other. One year ago TODAY, our long journey of getting them here safely began. I can't help but think about where I was, one year ago today, lying in a hospital bed in Gillette, wondering if my babies were going to be ok. I have had numerous break downs this month thinking about my babies and the fact that in a few weeks they will be one. I can't believe how fast time has gone. Jase and I were talking about the day that they were born. I will never forget the events that transpired that day, and hearing their beautiful cries for the first time. From the day we got in Salt Lake, until the day we left, was one of the hardest months of my life. I remember thinking, is this ever going to end? Will I ever get to hold my baby whenever I want and snuggle with them? Looking back, it seems like such a small part of the last year. I love my boys so much. I don't know what I would do without them. They make me so happy. Sometimes I get frustrated with them, and sometimes I need 10 minutes away from them to maintain my sanity but I honestly, honestly don't know what I would do without them in my life. I am a better person because they are in my life. I don't know why Heavenly Father believed in me enough to send me not one but TWO babies, but I am so happy that he did. Some days are tough, I'm not going to lie. But when they look at me with such an insane amount of love in their eyes, it makes everything worth it.

I found this on Pinterest and I love it. I need to always remember it.


  1. SO CUTE!!!! They are adorable Whitney. I printed that cute saying thing out and put it in a frame in Hayes' room. I can't believe your little guys are already one!!!

  2. Whit! You're boys are so so so cute! They do grow up so quick it's sad, but they are our lives huh?!